Self serving…Egomaniac…self centered…self absorbed assholes that can make any subject or conversation about themselves really pisses me off.
I guess you can call this a rant of some sorts but I hate being the “fall back” or “escape goat”. I do love that people can come to me to lean on for an honest opinion or just someone for a shoulder to cry on. But to come to me just to boast about yourself or try to play the “my life is worse than yours” game is annoying.
For example the type of people to ask YOU about YOUR DAY and then continues to tell you about there’s. Why not just be straight up honest and say “Hey I had a great/shitty day can I talk to you about it?”
Or the type of person that if you’re having a bad day or experience they have to up one you and make it seem like theirs was worse to undermine what you’re going through.
This year I did take about a week from actually posting anything to my blog. “WHY?” you might ask…
This year during Christmas was really hard for me personally. This year I found myself mourning the loss of my loved ones and not being able to really get into the holiday spirit. Every time I turned around I was overwhelmed with everything going on around me like it was information overload.
This Christmas I also realized that now it is my turn to take care of my parents instead of them taking care of me. They raised me and after I moved out at 18 we lived through life pretty normally. But this year is different. With the loss of my grandparents, my parents have stopped taking care of themselves. They are older, one is almost 50 and the other almost 70 , it’s complicated, but with the deaths of my grandparents they have stopped eating and kind of lost will for their own lives. So now it is my turn to take care of them. Which is wild to me because it feels like just yesterday I was a kid and I thought that they were invincible.
I didn’t get writers block and just stop posting…life happened and I really needed a mental moment for myself so for that I hope my readers understand.
I am so appreciative of everything and everyone that I gained this year. Also that much more appreciative for everything and everyone I lost. For all that I have gained and lost in my 2019 journey I am thankful.