What or who lights up your world?

Ohhhh man…

For a long time in my life it was nothing. Nothing was spectacular, nothing was special, I was going day by day.

Then my husband came back into my life my senior year of high school. It gave me an extra oomf to live. A reason to look nice and do nice things. He gave me a reason in that time of my life.

After awhile we weren’t enough for each other. We almost didn’t make it. He was going to allow things to crumble and I was going to allow him to leave. You can’t keep someone/something if it doesn’t want to be kept.

But then we tried with each other again, one last time.

The VERY next day I found out I was pregnant, and our worlds became one again. So to answer the question my husband is the apple of my eye but my child is the light of my life, and I’m sure it’s the same way for him.

What/who lights up your world? Why?

If you could go back in time, would you do everything the same?

Years pass and we learn from our mistakes or let them take us down. But, would we make those mistakes again if we knew then what we know now.

My husband and I talked about our past today and he asked me if I knew then, when we got together, what I know now, 4 years in, would I do it all the same.

Because he would….

I would…but I wouldn’t… I can’t say for sure that my 16-17 year old self would decide to be with him if I knew what all it took to get to where we are today. But, if I could talk to my younger self I’d tell her to do it but take her time.

I would be a parent to myself and tell her to take her time and figure out who she was before getting serious with a young man. I would tell her to learn more about her spouse and set boundaries to prevent the worst outcomes and gain mutual respect. I’d tell her to live on her own before moving in with her boyfriend and becoming a mother.

Love has no time limit so I’d tell her to really take the time to grow love and not rush to be a wife and mother before she got a chance to be herself.

If you could go back in time and re-do something what would it be and why?

If you could give advice to your younger self what would it be?

Embarrassing Moment #1

My baby was laughing at someone else pooping…

Yeah I had an embarrassing mom moment. Last week I went to pick my husband up from work (I jacked his car for the day because mine is out of commission currently) and I had to feed my baby.

He was closing up his shop and there was like nobody accept three others on the building so I went to the restroom and proceeded to breastfeed. 5 minutes goes by and someone walks into the stall next to mine.(The kind of stalls you can’t see under)

I don’t think she knew we were in there but she proceeded to do her business and with comical sounds made all the flatulent and “plop” sounds.

I stayed quiet…my baby did not!!!!!

My baby then unlatched and started laughing from hearing the sounds and started hitting the toilet paper holder so it was now known that the other lady was not alone.

I really hope she didn’t see my house shoes on the way past her stall because I couldn’t wait to scoop up my baby and evacuate the premises.

Baby Milestones

So today marks the day that my daughter turns seven months old and that doesn’t really seem like a huge milestone like walking or talking. But by the grace of god my child has made it to seven months healthy and so alive in body and spirit.

I am so blessed that my child wakes up every morning. She learns, develops, and progresses every single day.

I speak for ALL parents when I say that the milestones for a baby are huge. As the months have gone by I have watched my daughter grow from a tiny cell inside my belly into a vibrant baby girl.

I wonder if other parents are like me and have a routine with their baby then all of a sudden the baby seems like a whole kid and more independent. I look back on pictures of when I gave birth and my daughter doesn’t even look the same. I think back to those first couple months and think… wow my baby was more like a tiny, noisy, loaf of bread and now she’s a moving human being that laughs and plays and has a tone of voice when she babbles.

Every now and then I talk to myself and ask rhetorical questions like “when did she start sitting up on her own?” or “who the heck told her she could be so sassy?” and in reality I know she’s just learning who she is and developing her own personality.

Seven months seems like just another month to most people but to parents we have to enjoy and savor every month, minute, and second.